Wow, that's a lot of cliches in one headline!
If you have been following my blog, you may (or may not) have noticed that it has been some time since I have submitted a post. For a multitude of reasons, I feel very, very bad about this.
When I am "in the zone" as they say, I swear I'm in it for life. "I will never go back to my old ways," I tell myself. Well, as you may have guessed by now, I have been "out of the zone" and have had quite a hard time repositioning. And there is a true trickle down effect of this. When not on top of one's game, it can be tempting to drop off the radar entirely, which is exactly what I have done.
I talked this through with Caren, and she, with her usual wisdom, insight and caring manner, told me that I am not unusual, and that in fact, it happens to all of us at some time or another. She gave me permission to accept that I didn't fail, but rather, that I have a great opportunity to work myself back into a healther mental, physical and emotional state. She also said that I don't have to be back where I was tomorrow -- that I can take time and get there gradually. And of course, there were absolutely new judgment calls; only support and encouragement.
So, although I haven't gotten completely back to where I am proud of my recent record, I am doing better each day and I have stopped beating myself up so badly. It's all about health, and hitting myself with the guilt stick I have found out, is just not healthy!
I have posted a reminder on my calendar each week to make sure I blog -- whether I feel great or lousy -- to remind me that I have nothing to be ashamed of as long as I am continuing to work on taking care of the body God gave me.
So with that, I will sign off and say, "Talk to you next week."
Betsy
